hillary and obama

obama- i finally came this far. but the race is the not over yet, but from my personal understanding, the hard part is over. For the final run, i don't know if i even need her help. she finally showed her true color from the running, but i also have. she was tactical yet favored to demean other candidates. i understand that lowering other runners is the best psychological advantage to put yourself on spotlight, but she sounded like she was against everything that i have built up so far. i am not even sure if i can trust her so much behind that smiley face. 

black- i just finished going over the writing that my helpers and i posted online. i wrote a message to all the supporters out there who helped me fight in this campaign. they put so much money and effort into this race. and for now all i can do is thank them with a note. going straight to the point, i wrote on the blog that i would help obama. i made that public, because democrat has to win this race, but do i really want to help him though? he really played with my mind in the race, and i did not enjoy that at all. when the result cameout, i honestly the first thing that came to my mind was, "revenge" but it wasn't the right word. i need couple days to get my poker face on, and act like i truely step down and follow his lead, but when i see that he is not doing a damn good job that i could have done, i will make sure he knows how i feel about that. better yet, i will make sure that the public knows what i have to say to that. so be careful there, when you are have your guard down and make a mistake, i will stand there to make sure that the world knows, that they had made a mistake. a big mistake.

"I WANT TO KNOW"BY LINDSAY LEVIN 6.5.2008

George bush

George Bush

Quote of the day from time- George Bush

I really don't care if it created more enemies than before. at then, it was our best interest to get out revenge. yes revenge. they killed more than thousands of people bombing the world trade center, and i am giving them our payback. i am the head of united states of america. the citizen of america is my body, and their actions are from my thoughts. this is not a tyranny; i've heard the emotions and feelings from the people, and they wanted a fight- i gave them that. as much as people see me such a failure or a bad president for now, historians and futures descendants will understand my action one day, because my name and my actions will forever live in every text books.

black- yea we were angry when WTC blew infront of our eyes, and we did ask for revenge and a big fight. however, we did not ask to go to a war against the country at all. we just wanted to find people who are responsible for this happening and bring them down to justice. we did not ask our childrens to go die and fight without why we are sacrificing our lives. yea we were abit emotional, but it is a head's job to overlook personal emotions and look at the future. no. as we were confused, the president began to lose his mind also. when he was supposed to be the one to stick out and be strong, he lost his mind with us.

everyday?! not possible?

I have told myself that nothing is impossible many times in several occasion. when i picked up SAT, when i started to memorize vocabularies, when i wanted to become a doctor, when i thought i could become a milionarie, when i thought my family was going to be my best supporters, when i thought i could get A in my classes, when i thought i could win her love back, when i thought i could go back to speedskating world again.

i am asking myself a simple task to do everyday. if i can keep up with arousing myself everyday diligently, i think this is possble. write this black & white everyday. even if i can't be the guy who will get a perfect score on SAT, can't memorize the whole dictionary, can't cure cancer, can't own apple.inc myself, can't expect my family to take a bullet for me, can't pull allnighters everyday to get A in a simple anatomy class, can't let go of nicole in my past, and can't beat those skaters with those thigs with sizes of an oak tree, there must be something i can do in this life. and i believe that something is this.

i am a very special type of blood. my blood doesn't boil right away, but when it starts to heat up it goes all the way. i have ability or a small gift to see good in things. how? because i see the bad, also.

so i write right now, no matter what happens i will make sure i write one new post a day with hot topic in my life or where i live in.

as brandon cleverly mentioned yesterday, i might be fetus right now, but one day i grow big enough to take my dad's place.

so here it goes akjsdkasdhaskdjjk;aslkd;ask/>

meeting a mate

when i say that i am lonely, i am not expressing my physical sexual frustration. it's more of mental loneliness. i am sure it's not the sexual desire, because i had been embraced by many gals. i had been kissed by them, but they meant nothing.

i was missing something deeper than superficial physical touch. i was losing my hope on love. i thought my family's visit was going to fill in that big hole, but that was not true. it only made it bigger.

i hope i don't lose my touch from such a beautiful view that i had before.

classes

CAS PS241SA1

Dev Psychology Grant

4.0

Independent

0

PSY

155

Tue,Thu

6:00pm

9:30pm

Class Full

CAS PO241SA1

Intro Pub Pol Rossell

4.0

Independent

10

CAS

221

Tue,Thu

2:00pm

5:30pm

CAS BI114SA1

Human Disease Godrick

4.0

Lecture

13

PRB PRB

148 148

Mon,Wed Tue,Thu

9:00am 9:00am

12:30pm 11:30am

No lecture 5/26-6/6

SAR HS251SA1

Human Nutr Sci Durschlag

4.0

Independent

4

SAR

104

Tue,Thu

11:00am

2:30pm

Mts w/SAR HS551

journey?

i might turn this blog into a journey blogg, maybe not

this black and white is very interesting and exciting. i get to be on the both side which allows me to have a better understanding in situations. 

this maybe a start to solve a bigger issue in this world. everything can be seen as black and white- this does not simplify anything, it means that no matter how complicated a situation maybe, it can be solved by dividing into two sides, and understand them. 

but since i am disappearing next year without a notice, journey might help my friends to understand my situation better.